Thing's are starting to look up

Some of you may or may not know the situation my husband and I are in. But I won't go into too much details about it. Ever since he was laid off from his old company, things just seemed to go down hill for us, especially since he was the only income we ever had. So it took a big toll on the both of us. We stressed a lot, had a lot of anger although not with each other, just in general. Now, three months later, things are starting to look up for us. After all that my husband has been through, he stayed strong for us and didn't quit. He is career driven, dedicated, and the most amazing person I know. What I love about him most is he's always been a positive person, even through hard times. I know we tell each other "I Love You" every morning and every night before we go to bed, but I just wanted to take this time and tell him why I love him so much. Everyone needs that kind of reassurance.

LittleHunnys

My very good friend, Linda, has just opened up her own shop for baby shower gifts. She has some awesomely amazing talent. LittleHunnys has some adorable and creative baby shower items all put together and packaged nicely, they are so beautiful that you don't even want to open the box! She puts a lot of love and hard work in making these baby shower gifts, so if you are going to a baby shower anytime soon, check out her website, LittleHunnys, and browse through the very darling and decorative items that she has come up with. Enjoy!

Baby Boy Cupcake Box set

Baby Girl Cupcake Box set

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February 17, 2011

Nine years ago today my then boyfriend, who is now my husband, decided to make it our official anniversary date. We met a few days before and just seem to hit it off right away. Our first date was on Valentines Day, even though we don't celebrate it anymore. Three years later, we decided to take it one step further and tied the knot on February 17, 2005. So we have our 9 years total together and 6 years married on the same date, which is awesome so that we don't forget =).

Even though we moved quickly in the beginning of our relationship, we've come a long way with a 9 year old son and 2 year old twin boys. We have the most beautiful little family any couple could ask for. We've been through all the fights that any normal couple would have and we still worked through it. For us, we knew that having kids would change everything. We've had to make sacrifices and compromises to make things work for us. Nine years later it still works for us. We have faith in our marriage and we never gave up on each other, even when we've felt ready to give up, we didn't.

My husband is my best friend, my rock and my heart. He is always there for me when I need him, to confide in him. His shoulder is always ready for me to cry on when I'm having a bad day. He hasn't always been the best listener, but I must say he's grown to become the best person I can talk to and he'll listen. He's a great father to our 3 beautiful children. He's the best provider for our little family, even though he's been burned before, it hasn't stopped him from achieving his career goals. With out him, I don't know what I would do. He's a strong man with dedication to his work and his family. I am so proud of him and will always be by his side holding his hand. I have to admit I am a happy girl to be married to the most amazing man I have ever known. Happy Anniversary to my wonderful husband. I love you baby, and I am looking forward to many more anniversaries.

Sean and I... 9 years ago.

The most recent and descent family picture.

Sean and I... 9 years later =).

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**Stay tuned for next year. We will be renewing our vows! =)**

Relationships

I believe that it takes two to fight and it definitely takes two to make a relationship work. I know a lot of people out there that don't understand that it does take two to make things work and that not everyone is perfect. Every couple out there has their battles, I mean who doesn't? The key to a relationship is communication, trust and of course love. I know my husband and I have had our fights, but we come out of it stronger. It has taken a long time for us to be able to communicate on a level that we can both agree to. But we never gave up on each other, we never make empty threats to one another. We have faith in each other to work it out, not only for us but for our children. In relationships, especially when you have children involved, you have to learn to make sacrifices and compromises with each other to make things work.

We had our first son when we were young, I was 19 and he was 21. But we have never felt like we missed out on our lives. We still live our lives the way we want to and it works for us because we communicate and trust each other. I admit, having kids changes EVERYTHING, it truly does. But its a good thing, the kids keep us young at heart. With my husband and I, we don't feel the need to go out every single weekend with our friends, once a month maybe, or on a special occasion. We love spending time with the kids, especially the twins, they are hilarious especially at their age they are learning how to talk and mimic you. Who would want to miss out on their kids growing up? I sure don't.

I'm a stay at home mom so I know what it feels like to be left at home with the kids all day and night. I don't get to go to happy hour after work with co workers and friends, but I am okay with that. All I need from my other half is to know he's safe and he'll be home soon. I don't feel the need to know where he's at 24/7 because I'm keeping a gps tracker on him, not the case at all. For me, I just need to know that he's okay where ever he is at and that's all there is to it. When he has his guy time, I let him have his guy time and I hardly call him at all unless its an emergency. Why don't I call him 15 times to bug him when he's coming home? Because I don't want him to call me when I'm out with my girlfriends. Plain and simple. I don't want my husband to be a human backpack and I don't want to be a human backpack to him. We did live separate lives before getting married, and had other friends before meeting each other. So yeah we both do need our away time from each other. It gives us a chance to miss each other. You have to have trust in one another as well, if  you don't have trust in your relationship, then you don't have a relationship at all.

I love my husband for who he is. He doesn't treat me the way I don't want to be treated. He's not a human backpack, thank goodness lol. He loves me unconditionally and I feel the same way about him. We work through our issues, we talk about them and we listen to each other. We FORGIVE and FORGET about what's happened in the past. People who can't forget and forget, well they will never get over the past and will keep bringing it up and its like a never ending cycle. Why put yourself through that torture? If you aren't happy, then figure out what will make you happy in your relationship.

So for all of you that are looking for love in their relationship, let me tell you, it doesn't come knocking at your door when you want it to. Love doesn't come easy, love hurts and love is blind. But all in all, its worth falling in love. It's worth being with your boyfriend, girlfriend, husband, wife and partner for life. Knowing that they will be there for you when you need them the most, is probably one of the best parts of being in a relationship. Having someone there for you, a shoulder to cry on, to love and care about you and knowing that this is the person you want to grow old with and reminisce about all the good times, is the best feeling ever.

So cherish what you have with your loved one, because you will never find the same love again. No one is the same and no one is perfect. Cherish the fact that you have someone that loves you deeply, because honestly, it could be worse. You think you might have it bad with your loved one now, but I am sure there are people out there that have it worse than you think. Be positive and act positive if you want a positive outcome. One can only take in so much pain and heart ache before they give up completely. Remember it takes TWO to fight and it takes TWO to make it work.

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Coronado Clammin'

My parents invited us to go clam digging with them on Saturday, so we got a bunch of our friends to go and took the kids with us. We went to Coronado Beach and of course the water was freezing since it is February. I think we were the only ones in the water and I honestly didn't think we would be waist high in the water. Next time we go we will go prepared with more towels and shovels and pitch forks. For some reason my parents and their friends, the OG's as we like to call them, always like to lie to us. They told us to just bring the kids' toy shovels and that we didn't really need to bring anything. When we get there the men were all in the water with pitch forks and regular shovels. I was like what the heck, how rude lol. Always lying to us!

Even though the water was freezing cold, it was fun and everyone had a great time, and I think we are going back this Saturday. When we got back to my parents house, we opened some up, cleaned them and barbecued them with some butter, fresh minced garlic, black pepper and my home made pepper ginger sauce. I chopped up the harder parts of the clam and my friend Rose made ceviche out of it and it was delicious! I totally forgot to take a picture of the ceviche =(. Anyway, pictures are below, I know they aren't the best pictures because I took them with my iphone. I swear when I get a new camera I will take better picture.

Some of the "younger" peeps

My first giant clam!

My giant clam isn't so giant compared to this beast.

I know what you guys are thinking LOL.
But this is what it looks like opened.

Cleaned and ready to be chopped up.

Close up with butter, fresh garlic and black pepper.

Ready to be put on the BBQ grill.

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Super Bowl XLV: Green Bay Packers v.s. Pittsburg Steelers

So we went to our friend Steve's house for Super Bowl Sunday. Had an amazing time with some good company. They had a lot of food, and of course alcohol. Steve has an awesome house, not to mention the backyard, which has the most amazing pool and landscaping.

Anyway, it was a good game. My husband and I were rooting for Green Bay to win and of course they took the Super Bowl. Not to mention I won the 3rd quarter pool! $75 bucks in my pocket, yippy!

Since I am a San Diego Charger fan, I didn't have any Green Bay things to wear. So I wore my green tank top and put yellow ribbons in my hair. Of course the guys were making fun of me asking me if I just came from cheer practice, lol, jerks. And I also did my makeup accordingly, see pictures below. They aren't great pictures because I was taking them while my husband was driving lol. Also, please don't mind my red eyes. I used this disinfecting cleanser for my contacts, which had to sit for more than 6 hours and they sat over night. For some reason when I went to put in my contacts, it stung the crap out of my eyes. I felt like my eyes were on fire =(. And of course they stayed red the whole day, so I ended up taking my contacts off and putting on my glasses. They feel a lot better today by the way. =)

You really can't tell that I actually used some yellows, partly because I am dark skinned and I also didn't take very good pictures of this look. When I get a better camera I will take better pictures.

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MacGyver

I'm sure a lot of you remember that television show MacGyver. Well today sure felt like him LOL. Anyway, the Twins were taking their routine daily shower downstairs. Usually I have my toothbrush and theirs in the shower along with some toys that they can play with. Well some how they figured out how to remove the drain cover and of course thought it was hilarious to toss down my toothbrush and theirs, along with one of those Gerber baby spoons. This drain, like any other drain, was not short or wide enough to where I can stick my hand in or use needle nose pliers and just grab these items. Luckily, my toothbrush and a red one was standing vertically in the drain. Unfortunately for me, the baby spoon and the blue toothbrush were wedged into the very bottom of the drain laying horizontally.

So, I'm thinking crap, am I going to have to call a plumber?! I really really didn't want to have to call a plumber. So my MacGyver instincts kicked in. First I was able to get my tooth brush and one of the twins' tooth brush out very easily. As for the other two, that was a little bit tougher. My husband said that he had some zip-ties in his tool box so I grabbed those because I needed something that would be able to clamp down on the baby spoon and other tooth brush, and that was also small enough to fit all the way down the drain. Next I needed something thin and long but also sturdy, which of course I didn't have, so I grabbed 2 chopsticks and tapped them together with packaging tape. Then I thought to myself how in the world am I going to pull the zip-tie tight when its all the way down the drain?? I grabbed some yarn, the biggest needle I could find and my Xacto knife. I proceeded to puncture a small hole into the zip-tie with my Xacto knife, then threaded the yarn through the needle and then the needle through the hole that I made in the zip-tie.

It took me about an hour to finally grab the last two items that were down at the bottom of the drain, laying horizontally of course. But I felt really good after I finally got the last two things. Markus was my light man, he had to hold the flash for me so that I could see down the drain. Thank goodness the Twins were sleeping through this. I swear these boys are getting way too smart and way too fast, but what can you do, gotta love the little boogers. At least I saved some money and didn't have to call a plumber. Below is a picture of my make-shift grabber and the items that were stuck in the shower drain.

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Brody and Chayse

Our morning routine is to wake up and get big brother Markus ready for school. Then the twins and I come home and they eat more breakfast if they feel like eating. I don't know why it's so hard to get these boys to eat. Some days they eat really good and then some days it's like "I don't want to eat day". A bit frustrating but oh well, as long as they snack and eat through out the day I am okay with that. The twins recently got introduced to Kung Fu Panda. Hilarious because Brody will come to me and say "Mommie, panda". Then when it's over Brody will bring me the play station 3 controller and say "Mommie, more panda". So cute! At least it keeps them busy for a few hours.

My Half Sleeve

I finally put my before and after pictures of my tattoo together. I love the way my artist, Jason, designed it. I went into the shop and told him what I wanted, which was the kids' birth month flowers and their birth signs. He drew up some Narcissus and Gladiolus flowers and intertwined the boys birth signs with vines. He did an amazing job on designing what I couldn't piece together.

I know its a little bit hard to see the whole design in one picture. But this shows the majority of what the tattoo looks like. There is also a pretty butterfly that you can't really see, I'll have to post that up another time. Some people love my tattoo and some people hate. For the haters, I really don't care what they say because I love it. If I had to do it over again, I wouldn't hesitate to get a tattoo done that has so much meaning to me.


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Here is the picture of my butterfly that's hidden in the other picture. I blurred out the surroundings so that you can see butterfly a little better.

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Life

Life... What is the meaning of life? Answer, the meaning of life is a period of existence. Life doesn't mean happiness, or love. It doesn't mean that you'll become a gazillionaire, or be healthy or make and chose the right paths. Life is what you make of it. If you want happiness, love, wealth, health and all of the above, then you have to make it happen. We all go through good times and bad times. We all complain about not having enough money or that you feel like you've missed out on a lot of your life because you took a different path than others. But in reality, life is what you make of it. YOU make the choices, YOU control your future. Take all of the experiences in life and use them as a lesson learned. People might think that they have it bad, but honestly, everything could be way worse than it already is.

As for myself, a lot of bad things have happened recently. When I say bad, they are bad to me, doesn't necessarily mean bad to anyone else out there, but at least I know that. I don't regret meeting the wrong people because, even though some of them have screwed us over, it's opened another door for me and for my family. I don't regret the decisions I've made in the past. My husband and I feel like we're struggling to make it through the next couple of weeks, maybe even months. But in the end I know that we'll always have each other and our boys. I know that things will get better for us even if they went down hill back in November. I know that I will always have family and friends to count on. I know that things will get better even with the present sticky situation we are in. We just have to stay positive and look forward to the goals we want to complete in the near future. So all of the little things that are going wrong right now will get better in time. We just have to stick out and dig ourselves out of this hole that we were pushed into.

I really am a firm believer in KARMA. So, treat the ones you love and hold dear to your heart with respect and they will treat you with respect in return.

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